beauty...it's what comes naturally.

ok so i haven't updated this thing for a while so i think i may just stick to it for a little while; still though i probably won't.

right so after my mum died i decided i wanted to change my hair colour, well what a fail that was!

it was supposed to go purple but instead it decided it wanted to go like a browny/blondey/purpleish colour, well ok admittedly it was purple like really purple before i washed it, but the thing that pissed me off was the fact that it was a permanent dye! stupid colourant!

so anyhow it still looks kinda nice with the mixture of colour's :).

okaii so i'm feeling in a really quotey mood...so i'm just gunna copy and paste some of my favourite quotes just because i can :).

"Never let the fear of striking out, keep you from playing the game."-A cinderella story.

"Imagine a future moment in your life where all your dreams come true. You know, it's the greatest moment of your life and you get to experience it with one person. Who's standing next to you?"-Peyton Sawyer; One Tree Hill.

"Life's too short, too short to live it as a bad person."-Peyton Sawyer; One Tree Hill.

"You know what, you can't see it, but underneath my sunglasses i'm rolling my eyes."-Peyton Sawyer; One Tree Hill.

"People always leave...sometimes they come back."-Peyton Sawyer; One Tree Hill.

"It's not about what you say, it's about what you do. You don't like the person you've become then do something about it, because no one's going to do it for you."-Peyton Sawyer; One Tree Hill.

my favourtie quote of all of  is this one...

"Missing you get's easier everyday, even though i know it's one day longer since the last time i saw you, it's one day closer to the next time i will."-Peyton Sawyer; One Tree Hill.

yeah ok, if you hadn't guessed already i like Peyton from one tree hill, she's amazing and her quotes she says inspire me, i don't know why or how but they do.

overrrrr

Well all exams are over, my school life is kind of over, but not literally as i'm heading off to sixth form :).

ermm yeah so i thought 2010 was supposed to be a good year? but not for me anyway, in june i lost my mum suddenly it's still quite a raw subject but i like to talk about her as it helps me with the grieving process. i still replay that day in my mind sometimes and some days i just wanna cry but i can't coz i don't want people to feel they need to speak to me or anything. i'd rather people be normal around me and act how they usualy acted around me when she was here.

my bestest friend kimberley has been pretty much like my rock, i couldnt ask for a better friend if i'm honest, recently we've spent so much time together and it's like woah, when we first tstarted talking like back in year 9, we didnt think we'd get on, now look at us 3 years later :) love youu kimberley :).

ermm so yeah on tuesday coming up i'm going up to cumbria to see my northern lot, they miss me too much when i'm not there :P. and then i get my exam results on the 24th august which im pretty excited about as i realllllllllyyyyy wanna know what my results are :). 

anywayyy i shall hopefully keep this updated more? i dunno but bye x 

general shit,

Oooh, gotta love my best friend :)

We randomly go for extremely long walks for no reason, we laugh at stupid things "sexual things", how mature? lol.

We both act like were 12 sometimes, no harm in that though :).

So yeah in the past two weeks my best friend has managed to persuade me to join army cadets, it is actually so good :), but they call you by your last name and its ironic that my last name is small and i am small, so i get the piss took out of me :( ohwells lol.

So, reccently i've met someone new, he's lovely, even if i do say so myself ;). Also we get on extremely well and have so much in common it's quite scary lol. Anyway enough of that :).

Exams coming up :/ so going to fail tbh lol. First exam on Wednesday 5th May 2010, well can't be bothered though.

Don't you just hate it when you know something isn't going right but yet you still do nothing to help things go right? Also it amuses me how pathetic and immature people can be, grow up please darling, he will text me if he wants, he will talk to me if he wants, "he's just not that into you" :)

Rightteyooo i'm offski's

:)

hmm..

Sat here on a fine saturday evening watching the second season of true blood and i am on the 10th one :D, it's pretty good.

anyway, i was reading my friend Kimberley's blog and she had written about what she wants to do in the next five years, i thought that it was a farely good idea. im not gunna' copy her in the sense that im not gunna do just 10 things in five years, i'm gunna try and do 20 things in 10 years. this to me seems simplistic and easy do ya not think?

well feel free to make a judegement i won't take it personally.

1)get the grades i need to go to university.

2)go to university and study physical education and get my pgce to become a p.e teacher.

3)go to at least one or more glastonbury gigs.

4)one or more leeds festivals.

5)fall in love get married and become a parent.

6)complete all 3 dofe certificates.

7)go travelling or atleast go somewhere exotic in the world.

8)meet atleast 2 famous people that i idolise.

9)do the london marathon at least twice.

10)do the german marathon once.

11)go to nyc during the christmas period.

12)pass my driving test first time round at the age of 18.

13)do something like 'come dine with me'.

14)watch the sun rise and set whilst on a beach somewhere nice and hot.

15)live somewhere that isn't milton keynes.

16)go on holiday with some of my closest friends.

17)go and visit my mums side of the family in asutrailia.

18)jump out of an airplane.

19)go bunjee jumping.

20)keep in contact with at least 3 friends from secondary school.

i know they all seem really basic, but in 10 years i think hopefully i would have been able to achieve these.

anyway, peace out :D x.

blurghhhh

don't you just hate it when your feeling down, and the saturday's keep asking if you want to go up?
so i've had an alrightish day i guess.
so i'm sitting here writing this whilst watching Marley and Me, and im thinking to myself, what is actual point?
i mean like what is the point in having all these exams when really were only gunna ever need english, maths and science maybe? german and humanities is just pointless if you ask me.
i've been thinking lately that it's the littlest things in life that matter most, and that friends will be there to wipe the tears but best friends will be there with a spade saying "who am i burying now babe?"
"Imagine a future moment in your life where all your dreams come true. You know, it's the greatest moment of your life and you get to experience it with one person. Who's standing next to you?"
this quote got me thinking actually, but tbh i don't know how to express my feelings so i'm just not going to go into it.
i thought boys/lads/blokes whatever, were different but from what ive heard and what ive seen i think my iews may have changed!
well im going to watch the rest of marley and me, bye <3

life...

Haven't had time to come on here really.

Life, atm it's alright i suppose, i got the best set of friends and wouldn't have it any other way tbh.

Exams coming up, oh the joys. So much revision i need to do, and this is just to get the C in maths and english!

Lately i've come to realise it's not who you want in your life that matter but the people who are already in your life matter most.

Also i've come to learn that just by judging someone you never actually get to see the real them, until you actually start talking to them and think to your self "this person isn't actually that bad, infact their quite funny!"

NEVER TAKE LIFE FOR GRANTED, you will only regret it when your older; you only live once so live it how you would want to live it, not how others want you to live it!

Hmm...idont know what to say now really?

I hate the fact that life is taken seriously way too much, these day's it's all about having fun and being with your mates. This is important atm, 'coz in theory how many of them are you actually going to see when you have left school? Or how many are you actually going to keep in contact with after you have left school? My answer to that would be, not many.

My week in one;

Let's just sum up my week,
To be completely honeswt this week has had it's up's and down's but most weeks i have are like that, so no change really ;).
This week i went on a scool trip up to Cumbria-Longrigg Residential Centre to participate in extra maths revision and to also participate in outdoor purtsuits. Most of the things this week were pretty tiring, especially the caving and the 5 mile waterfall walk, it was pretty amazing though. When we got to the centre me, Gemma, Orlando and Daniel.W went with Mr. Southwell to Asda in Kendal which is about 3 miles from where we were i think?
Well anyway it was pretty funny, whenever we lost Mr.Southwell we would call out "dad, where ya gone?" LOL it's one of them "you had to be there" times to actually find it funny.
Anyway back to the activities, yeah so caving on Tuesday-wasn't so bad, even though id been in that cave before. Wednesday we did the waterfall walk which was pretty amazing like i said. Thursday we did canoeing, oh i actually enjoyed this like literally, we went to the biggest lake in the whole of the UK called Lake Windermere, if you watch Coronation Street you would have heard about this lake as this is where Joe Mcintyre fell off his boat, how cool is that? Well i don't mean it's cool that he fell off his boat but that fact that we went canoeing on the lake where corrie shot some of their scenes :D.
Friday we came back to MK, such a long journey but i was so glad to get home and then watch Vampire Diaries, anyone watch it? It's amazing :D.
Right im off to bed because i'm absolutly knackered and i need loads of sleep ;)
Night all, don't let the bed bugs bite :D
xx

Sorryyyyyy :(

Sorry guys;
Haven't been able to do this for a while, as my father hasn't paid the bill, but were switching internet thingy's thats why :).
Last week was feb half term, soo blooming boring although i went to Kimberley's on the tuesday and we had a lagh :D, me-"can you lick your nipples?" kimberley-"no, can you?" me-"not really, how about your shoulder, can you lick that?" kimberley-"yes i can :D can you?" me-"yeahh, wow, try your elbow" **tries to lick elbow** kimberley-"why did i even try i know i can't" LOL this just made my week really.
This week we were back to crappy school, but i'm off to see JLS tommorrow (Thursday) woooop so excited tbh.
Next week im off to Longrigg residential centre to complete a whole week of maths with four hoursof the subject a day, i would say it's gonna KILL ME :(.

Anywayy i'm off for now, when i next write a blog i should have my internet back at home :D.
Love you all xx

valentine's weekend, just a bit of a waste;

Well...
this weekend has been pretty rubbish.
Saturday 13th Febrary, i was awoken early by a text message from blooming vodafone, when i eventually got up and went downstairs to no-one actually being up, then i had a bath and got dressed and that, i had some breakfast, then when i was about to leave to go to my sisters house, my mother decided to grace me with her prescence. When i left to go wait for the bus, which suprising for MK metro, came early i felt the need to listen to some JLS. When i got Michelle's, Mason my nephew gave me the biggest kiss and cuddle ever, but when i actually looked up, my other nephew Rohan was cuddled up on the sofa with his mum, with the highest of temperatures, poor little muffin. However, Michelle and Mark had to go shopping so had to leave my dearest nephews with me. Whilst they were gone Rohan fell asleep for atleast two hours bless him. When Michelle and Mark got back, Mark took me home, but before i went home, we had to pick Kimberley up as Mark didn't know where she lived. When i got home, we had some old family friends over, but they didn't stay long as we had to go out down the club. After the family friends had gone, i went upstairs to get ready, yes i wore a dress and i didn't look that bad in it actually LOL. The ABBA tribute act were shit, they kept forgetting the lyrics it was terrible haha. After the night had finished we went back home and watched Green Street 2-stand your ground, i love love love that film, idk why i just do LOL. After the film i went to bed.
Sunday 14th February, valentines day, ohh the joys pf being single on day for loved ones. Ohwell, i'm not particularly bothered. Today i spen the evening with my sister while her hubby was at work, we ended up watching paranormal activity which scared the living shits out of both of us haha well the ending scared me as it was a different ending to the one i had watched previous. As i am writing this now i'm watching a film called 'my lovely bones' it's absolutly disgusting tbh, not in the gruesome sort of disgusting but the sort of sick pervy disgutsuing, you have to watch it to understand really. Anywayy off to bed now, night y'all LD x

Friday 11th February 2010-first ever blog post

Hey guys,

yeah i don't have a clue what i'm doing new to all this as you can tell ;).

Well tbh this week has been interesting; let's start with Monday, hmm what can i say was boring as per usual, revision in English is always a joy you know how it is right? Ohh Tuesday was interesting i guess, i had my mock GCSE English Literature exam, was pretty easy tbh. After the exam at lunch, me Helen and Hannah were sitting there as you do and Qi-jun and her 'possy' came and sat with us, Qi-jun gave Helen one of them lindort chocolate ball things, and Hannah happened to ask Helen something just as she out the chocolate in her mouth and to which Helen replied "i can't talk i have balls in my mouth" well as soon as she said that, we we're all in hysterics well who wouldn't?

Anyway going onto Wednesday, hmm what did i do Wednesday, well i had double performance and let's just say it was farely interesting, i'm not gunna' go into detail 'coz quite frankly i can't be asked!

Thursday, ohh double English what joys aye? Oh and the fact that i had a splint on my wrist just made everything worse, and then Kimberley say's to me "too much wanking" to which she then added that it's my 'spasticated wanking hand' so yeahh all works out great tbh. Thursday after school me and Kimberley and Hannah did sports leaders, well this was just interesting tbqf was soo funny, it's one of those 'you had to be there' things really. Thursday evening i had to go back into school at 7.00pm for and awards evening to which i got an award for mathematics, and i also got a princess diana award for anti-bullying, how geeky right? lol

Well enough of that, Friday, the day i had triple sport and the fun me and Kimberley had in them lessons haha well it wasn't hilarious but it was funny, make sense?

Well it was the first lesson of sport and i decided that i needed to get atleast a little bit of work done, but Kimberley was doing her blog and i got distracted and was like "ohh help me make one" so she did, which was very kind if her :). However in the second lesson i managed to get a whol piece of work done, i think was probably due to actually having a proper sports teacher in the classroom and that Kimberley did a few errands whcih meant i was alone for a little while, but i'm not saying i don't love having her there, but we seem to distract eachother, which is i'm sure why we sit together? LOL

Well anyway, i think i've written enough seeing as this is my first one, night people ;) x